Amazed by Tommy Emmanuel (see the video if you don't understand - it's his live performance of "Angelina")
Sensibly inspired to worship God with thanksgiving for music.
Sensibly inspired to practice my guitar and perhaps buy a thumb pick to start learning fingerstyle.
Wrestling with my senior research project: currently looking at mental models theory, reasoning, discourse comprehension processes, and working memory, and trying to extract a workable research question from my readings.
Reading John Piper's "When I Don't Desire God"
Meditating on Psalm 139 and Ephesians 2:1-7.
Amazed by God's grace.
Daily asking for grace and forgiveness as the Holy Spirit is showing me more and more of my selfishness, "I deserve better" mentality, my lack of proper desire for God, while simultaneously awakening a desire to be more thankful, humble, and selflessly loving, and more in love with the One who created me and gave all for me.
Amazed at the thought that my sister is getting married in 17 days.
Saddened by the worsening political situation in Malaysia.
I want to share my theme song for the new year, gifted by God through a Gift of a friend:
Come meet us, King Jesus Oh wind of change blow through this temple Sweet Spirit of God, come and mend our hearts For all we have are songs Unless You come
Awaken what’s inside of me Tune my heart to all You are in me Even though You’re here God come And may the vision of You Be the death of me And even though you’ve given everything Jesus come
Come free us, King Jesus It’s the only way that freedom’s given From You and You alone In the work You’ve already done For all we have are songs, Unless You come
Here we are, Lord In this place Crying out for Your embrace To hear Your voice More than songs Please come Jesus come
Thanks to my beloved sister for sharing this song with me! =)
Lyrics:
In the autumn on the ground, between the traffic and the ordinary sounds I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through I watch as lovers pass me by Walking stories - whos and hows and whys Musing lazily on love Pondering you I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well
[CHORUS] I'll be waiting for you baby I'll be holding back the darkest night Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right Love is waiting
It's my caution not the cold There's no other hand that I would rather hold The climate changes, I'm singing for strangers about you Don't keep time, slow the pace Honey hold on if you can The bets are getting surer now that you're my man
[CHORUS]
[BRIDGE] I could write a million songs about the way you say my name I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again and like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start, neither should I rush my way into your heart
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Here's a related passage from the Psalms: "LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance." (Psalm 16:5-6)
I'm all mushy and sentimental again. This time I miss my grandmothers and the rest of my family back home in good old Malaysia.
For those who are Chinese illiterate (like Joel the Xiang Jiao Ren ;p), here's the romanized and translated lyrics of the song. Enjoy!
Translation: Sighzzz - www.jay-chou.net (with some grammatical changes by Joel the Xiang Jiao Ren)
(verse 1) 今天是外婆生日 我换上复古西装 jin tian shi wai po sheng ri wo huan shang fu gu xi zhuang Today is grandmother's birthday, I changed into an ancient western suit
载着外婆开着拉风的古董车兜兜风 zai zhe wai po kai zhe la feng de gu dong che dou dou feng Driving grandmother around with my cool antique car
车里放着她的最爱 找回属于是她的时代 che li fang zhe ta de zui ai zhao hui shu yu shi ta de shi dai In the car her favourite music is playing, brings back the years that belonged to her
往大稻埕码头开去把所有和外公的往事静静回忆 wang da dao cheng ma tou kai qu ba suo you he wai gong de wang shi jing jing hui yi Driving towards Port Da Dao Cheng, quietly thinking about all those memories she had with grandfather
外婆她脸上的涟漪 美丽但藏不住压抑 wai po ta lian shang de lian yi mei li dan cang bu zhu ya yi The ripples on grandmother's face are beautiful, yet could not hide stress/inhibition
失去了爱情只盼望亲情 弥补回应 shi qu le ai qing zhi pan wang qin qing mi bu hui ying Love has left her but she only hopes for kinship to make up for it
大人们以为出门之前桌上放六佰就算是孝敬 da ren men yi wei chu men zhi qian zhuo shang fang liu bai jiu suan shi xiao jing The adults thought they were filial just by putting $600 on the table before they left home
一天到晚拼了命 赚钱少了关怀有什么意义 yi tian dao wan pin le ming zhuan qian shao le guan huai you shen me yi yi Their everyday lives are battles, but lack of concern makes earning money meaningless
(chorus) 外婆她的期待 慢慢变成无奈 wai po ta de qi dai man man bian cheng wu nai Grandmother's anticipation slowly turns into resignation
大人们始终不明白 她要的是陪伴 da ren men shi zhong bu ming bai ta yao de shi pei ban The adults don't seem to understand what grandmother needs is companionship
而不是六佰块 比你給的还简单 er bu shi liu bai kuai bi ni gei de hai jian dan And not just $600, it's even simpler than what you gave
外婆她的无奈 无法变成期待 wai po ta de wu nai wu fa bian cheng qi dai Grandmother's resignation is unable to turn hopeful
只有爱才能够明白 走在淡水河畔 zhi you ai cai neng gou ming bai zou zai dan shui he pan Only through love you will understand, walking at the bay of freshwater lake
听着她的最爱 把温暖放回口袋 ting zhe ta de zui ai ba wen nuan fang hui kou dai Listening to her favourite song, putting back warmth into her pocket
(verse 2) 记得去年外婆的生日 表哥带我和外婆参加 ji de qu nian wai po de sheng ri biao ge dai wo he wai po can jia Still remember her birthday last year, cousin brought us two to the party
她最最重视的颁奖典礼 结果却拿不到半个奖 ta zui zui zhong shi de ban jiang dian li jie guo que na bu dao ban ge jiang I'm unable to get any award in the ceremony she most values
不知该笑不笑 我对着镜头傻笑 只觉得自己可笑 bu zhi gai xiao bu xiao wo dui zhe jing tou sha xiao zhi jue de zi ji ke xiao Don't know whether to laugh, I smiled meekly at the camera, thought myself as a joke
我难过 却不是因为没得奖而难过 wo nan guo que bu shi yin wei mei de jiang er nan guo I'm sad, but not because of not getting any awards
我失落 是因为看到外婆失落而失落 wo shi luo shi yin wei kan dao wai po shi luo er shi luo I'm depressed because my grandmother's depressed
大人们根本不能体会表哥他的用心 da ren men gen ben bu neng ti hui biao ge ta de yong xin The adults don't understand cousin's intentions at all
好像随他们高兴就可以彻底的否定 hao xiang sui ta men gao xing jiu ke yi che di de fou ding Seems like they can reject his work if they feel like it
否定 我的作品 决定在于心情 fou ding wo de zuo pin jue ding zai yu xin qing Reject my work, depending on their mood
想坚持风格他们却觉得还欧颗 没惊喜没改变 xiang jian chi feng ge ta men que jue de hai ou ke mei jing xi mei gai bian Wanted to remain my style but they feel it's outdated, unexciting and unusual
我已经听了三年 我告诉外婆 wo yi jing ting le san nian wo gao su wai po I've heard that for three years, I told grandmother
我没输 不需要改变 wo mei shu wo bu xu yao gai bian I did not lose, I don't need to change at all
表哥说不要觉得可惜 这只是一场游戏 biao ge shuo bu yao jue de ke xi zhe zhi shi yi chang you xi Cousin said don't feel that a chance is wasted, it's only just a game
只要外婆觉得好听 那才是一种鼓励 zhi yao wai po jue de hao ting na cai shi yi zhong gu li The biggest encouragement is only when grandmother thinks it's nice
外婆露出了笑容说她以我为荣 wai po lu chu le xiao rong shuo ta yi wo wei rong Grandmother smiled and said she's proud of me
浅浅的笑容 就让我感到比得奖它还要光荣 qian qian de xiao rong jiu rang wo gan dao bi de jiang ta hai yao guang rong Her weak weak smile is enough to make me feel prouder than getting an award
(ending) 外婆她的无奈 无法期待 wai po ta de wu nai wu fa qi dai Grandmother's resignation is unable to turn hopeful
有爱才能够明白 走在河畔 you ai cai neng gou ming bai zou zai he pan Only through love you'll understand. Walking by the riverside
听着最爱 把温暖放口袋 ting zhe zui ai ba wen nuan fang kou dai Listening to her favourite song, put the warmth into her pocket
Sinner. Saved by grace. Saint (in the making). Worshipper. Musician. Wordsmith. Artist. Lover of beauty. Man. Child of God. Wannabe athlete. Emotional. Thinker. Complex. Different. Person.